📝女文青談寫📝文字猶如我家 (廣東話寫作)

用文字去做自我檢討 對我嚟講 就好似返屋企一樣 個感覺好熟悉 喺文字嘅世界 我可以慢慢咁樣將自己好雜亂嘅諗法寫低 就算喺寫嗰一刻未必諗到解決方法 但係都可以先記錄落嚟 日後再翻睇再補充


雖然我都好鍾意同朋友講電話同埋出街 但係其實我都好享受同埋好需要獨處


我同朋友寫信唔係因為我同對方有話題 我寫嘅信似係自我對話多於係分享 我記得每個暑假我都會同兩個特定嘅朋友通訊 幾乎每日都會寫 就算對方未回信 我都會不斷咁寫 其實係一種交換日記


諗返轉頭 我嘅寫作生涯其實啱啱先開始 因為成個中學入面 我都掛住讀書 好少時間創作 到咗大學係有多咗時間創作 而且的確寫咗一本小說 但係我又因為被拒絕咗而好低落 冇再繼續寫 後期又因為要寫畢業論文 唔得閒寫小說 就算有時間都用喺歌詞創作上 其實真係冇乜認真寫過長篇嘅文字 反而係2011年至2012年有寫blog 嗰陣時認真寫番啲散文 當然呢幾年我都開始多咗寫 但係因為我唔係寫專欄 唔係日日都寫 只係有感而發先至會寫 我覺得唔需要放棄呀 其實可以繼續寫落去 有諗法就寫低 唔好再在乎究竟會唔會出到書 呢個唔應該係寫作嘅目標 我嘅目標應該係透過寫作 令自己可以改善倒 累積更加多優點 慢慢減少缺點 呢個先係寫作嘅目的 寫作係為咗自己唔好再重韜覆轍 希望自己喺反省中救贖到自己 至於可唔可以將自己呢啲諗法同其他人分享 已經係後話 如果連自己都救唔到又點可以期望自己救到別人呢


印像中自己係一個好活躍好動嘅女仔 其實亦有好多時候係鍾意諗嘢 只不過細個嘅時候貪玩同埋冇需要去諗嘢 踏入青春期嘅時候 我開始明白到諗嘢嘅重要性 會去反省自己每一個行為 點樣先可以更加配合到世界嘅運作 就算唔係配合世界 起碼都要搵出一啲方法 令自己生活得開心啲


細個嘅時候 我鍾意寫信 鐘意去圖書館


細個睇卡通片時特別留意主角寫日記 而且我鍾意嘅嗰啲角色都係會自己創作一啲嘢嘅 例如係矢澤愛嘅近所物語同宮崎駿嘅夢幻街少女入面嘅女主角


其實我真係應該對自己好啲 買一啲靚啲嘅筆記簿 記得中學嘅時候我都唔捨得買啲靚嘅筆記簿 成日用啲好醜樣嘅筆記簿

📝女文青談寫📝不開心 不娛樂 去寫作

隨著電子化,娛樂變得垂手可得;有煩惱的人都躲到遊戲裡尋求快樂,或轉移視線,不會再「自虐地」在同一個糾結點上打轉。

對一個有志寫作的人來說,網路的精彩若能豐富她的想像力,拓展她的思路,故然是美事,但如果把大部份的時間投放於所謂的「靈感採集」,就不利生產了。

把煩惱傾倒於紙上以筆梳理吧!

 📝女文青談寫📝寫之苦:Wanting to Win vs Wanting to Share

成長路上最大挫折之一:無力感。

欣賞他人的設計、音樂、書畫,會問:為甚麼別人做到,吾做不到?

打開文學雜誌,覺得很自卑,同時有一團火,想超越這些人。起初很有勁,慢慢變得很累,開始迷失。

吾忘了,這是古今中外的combined effort。

單人匹馬與世界對立,輸是理所當然的。

[solution] Think of it this way: Creating something is like joining the party. It’s a contribution from a member of creativity. You don’t compete to be the number one as you create.

理智一點吧!一個人怎可能做十個人的東西?創作是加入成為一份子,而非滅絕其他創作人。

📝女文青談寫📝寫者的疑惑與方案

1. 友人F問吾為甚麼用真名寫作會有所困擾?吾說:「吾不想給人opinionated的印象,影響社交生活。」

[Solution] 先用筆名,到時機成熟再顯示真身份。

2. 我怕定立一個theme後會局限我的成長。

[Solution] 那就定立一種態度。像Melissa Alexandria在她的YouTube channel談minimalism、veganism、fashion and beauty,看似雜亂,但她的主旨是positivity。

If You Live Right, You’ll Have Time to Write

Every time I stumbled upon blogs which are updated frequently, I wonder, “How can they have such an ample amount of time?”

Then I study successful people, living and dead, whose productivity has made huge contribution to their own domain and discover the one trait in each of them: they spend significantly less time on entertainment than regular people.

While most people sleep in, shop online, play games, chit chat, watch flick and so, those who take their projects seriously fill their schedules first with the progress goals so there is no way for distractions to squeeze in.

As I came across with the idea of minimalism, it dawned do me that my convoluted writing could be a reflection of my life! There were too many things that seemed fun but didn’t really give me any joy eventually that stole away my time to live my life to its fullest and share my story with the world.

Then I started re-prioritizing. I crossed out activities that didn’t contribute to my long-term goal and built up a strong foundation that’s favourable to my writing (like going to bed early, doing yoga and eating right).

I started this year with two calendars, one to mark the chain actions of writing and one for yoga practice. It was until the 4th/5th month I noticed a co-relation: The day I went to a yoga class and got my blood circulation going instead of sitting there watching entertainment news and coveting was usually the day I wrote too.

So my answer to the earlier question is: They have time to write because they are living right.

 📝女文青談寫📝來檢討吾的寫作習慣

現在的工作,工時不定,想達成以寫作為生的目標,得有一套時間運用的規範。在此之前需要好好檢討一下吾從寫的一切。

寫作主題:

  • 紀錄和反思生活的種種現象
  • 研究如何提升生活質素

磨練地方:

  1. 文筆 (中:詞語,句法。英:詞語) by 讀優質文章
  2. 寫作速度 by 多寫,拿感覺
  3. 執行力 (無時無刻都有點子,但缺乏把點子組織成文的時間表)

時間善用:

  • block hours: 週三六日晚
  • 在公司(空閒時)把紙本筆記數位化
  • 在家裡修改初稿
  • 在街外則閱讀
  • 與其在車上滑手機或睡前滑pad,不如重讀筆記、再次思考、補充內容、潤飾文句